Similar to Pawn Shop Jewels in that its about the realisation that the relationship you are in is toxic. However this is about the journey of coming to that realisation. Realising the cracks and the red flags. Recognising that you are losing sight of yourself.
lyrics
Is this what I'm destined to be?
Maybe I am, maybe i’m not
You know i'm not listening i’m picking my teeth
And I can’t hear your words but they’re dragging on
Yeah, they’re dragging on
Are you the pains in my chest?
Are you this diet of cigarettes?
Are you the two hours sleep every night?
All my friends think i’m losing my mind.
Another three hours sat in my car
I can look in your eyes but I don't know where you are
But I can feel this collapse in my arms
If I took all the weight from my shoulders I still wouldn't get very far
Things went swimmingly until we drowned
I guess what goes around comes around
Since I met you i’ve not been myself
But i’m getting tired of being someone else
I’m getting tired of being someone else
I’m getting tired of being someone else
You will speak, but I won't listen
The words they blur and change position
Real life doesn't always make sense
As I fall in and out of past tense
Are you the pains in my chest?
Are you this diet of cigarettes?
Are you the 2 hours sleep every night?
All my friends think i’m losing my mind
Things went swimmingly until we drowned
I guess what goes around comes around
Since I met you i’ve not been myself
But i’m getting tired of being someone else
credits
from Happiness,
track released March 31, 2022
Written by Beauty School
Produced and Mixed by James Kenosha
Mastered by Felix Davis at Metropolis