The song is about dying. Or at least me trying to imagine what those final moments are like. Each verse represents the final thoughts in my last moments. Each of the three verses get heavier and crescendo with the last one being thankful for the time I got to spend with my wife. Ekimae means “in front of the station” in Japanese which is where our hotel was in Tokyo where we spent our honeymoon.
lyrics
You wouldn't sleep in earthy flesh with maggots in your mouth
So don't you dig that hole into the ground
I will go by flames instead, that decimate my limbs
My human vessel ends where it begins
Skin cells they glide on the air
Lightwaves shapeshift to warm colours to help me exhale
As I close my eyes
I close my eyes
I close my eyes
I close my eyes and let myself go
Deep blue skies i’m questioning how the world turns round
How all these beautiful colours exist in my eyes and how I hear sounds
How I let love grow and take control of my mind my eyes and my hands and my feet
How I was more of a father to my own father than he really was to me
Skin cells they glide on the air
Lightwaves shapeshift to warm colours to help me exhale
As I close my eyes
I close my eyes
I close my eyes
I close my eyes and let myself go
I let myself go
Yeah!
The birthdays, the holidays
I’m glad we did this together
I left my heart at Ekimae
If I could i’d roll back the time
It's just a shame how the time flies
From the first day, to the last day
As I close my eyes.
credits
from Happiness,
released September 9, 2022
Written by Beauty School
Produced and Mixed by James Kenosha
Mastered by Felix Davis at Metropolis