Monster is a song about being dysfunctional during bouts of depression. Locking yourself away in a room playing video games in the dark. Waking up late and convincing yourself its ok to live this way.
lyrics
You call me at midday
I’m still waking up
Counting creases on my face
I’m coming unstuck
It doesn't make much sense to move
If I can't spend my time with you
I've got a hole in my pocket
The one where my spare change rattles around with my youth
(It rattles around with my youth)
It doesn't make much sense to move
If I can't live my life with you
And I can't, oh it's sad but true
I’ll still be ever dependent on you
Stood here like a bubble stuck here waiting to burst
Like i'm frozen in one spot and my legs start to hurt
There’s weeks where i can function, my mind seems to work
But if i stop for too long i'll probably blow again.
And I, when did I become a monster lurking in the dark?
Oh but i’m getting by
When did I, When did I become a monster lurking in the dark
Oh but i’m getting by
Stood here like a bubble stuck here waiting to burst
Like i'm frozen in one spot and my legs start to hurt
There’s weeks where I can function, my mind seems to work
But if i stop for too long i'll probably blow again.
And I, when did I become a monster lurking in the dark?
Oh but i’m getting by
When did I, When did I become a monster lurking in the dark
Oh but I'm getting by.
credits
from Happiness,
released September 9, 2022
Written by Beauty School
Produced and Mixed by James Kenosha
Mastered by Felix Davis at Metropolis